Thursday, September 20, 2007

dumpbin.exe

Random lines... scribbled over scattered papers... some time back.

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We are essentially loners...
and it is not a cynical statement.
It is as simple and as dear an acknowledgment...
that.. the joy of mere knowledge of the presence of certain people in your life is.
And the realisation or the calm acknowledgment of it...
changes nothing but grant more clarity.
There is a point after which everybody else stops...
and 'beyond' there is only you.
We may as well face it...
and get it over with.

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Somewhere on the last 20 seconds you have grown up...
-
Finding Neverland

It can get overwhelmingly amusing when a shamelessly dramatic line like that reveals itself to posses more truthful overtones than you had previously envisioned.

One can only laugh in response/release/reaction...

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On desperate look-out for a 'peer'...
Do you know.....
Could you ever understand what that means?!!!

If not, you could never know the rush.,
the flood..... of actually finding 'one'.

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Artists are emotional you say,
I can only laugh...
Don't you see.. they are as detached as they come.
Play around with emotions...
their own.
Cold and ruthless they are..
They use, exaggerate, fictionalize and discard...
They lean back and watch the proceedings...
field spread out.
Hands folded, they smirk...
feeling all smug.

p.s: I count myself as one and not all in mood for a pseudo-intellectual debate on the content of the above lines.
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This could be her greatest achievement...
or a grave self-betrayal.
Could she tell them apart...
was redemption possible?

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If anyone asked her what the most vulgar word in English was...
today..she was sure of the answer..it is 'hobby'.
Hobby...
That's how people trivialize their love... isn't it?
Leading half lives....
with empty self-assurances of practicality...

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I questioned us, I reasoned it..
You gave me reason to do it...
The reasons were yours...
they were mine too.

I feel.. I weigh,
I rationalize.. I debate,
I realise......

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She was not a fan of generalization...
But she sometimes doubted if it was all just about,
holding onto the exceptions...
like a drowning man's fleeting last attempt at self-preservation.

Coz, she looked around and found only disappointment.

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There are moments of uncertainty...
moments of doubt...,
when the road ahead is fogged with failed assumptions...
when the seemingly lucid logic fails you...
then somehow.. just somehow... life throws up its solution to you.
you might not be able to immediately make the connection..
nor would it be the most palatable....
it could be cruel in its obvious intent
and the immediate emotion can sometimes be very overbearing....
But.....
maybe.... you should give it a chance.....
Just maybe.....

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about the title...

Hmm.. dumpbin.exe is a command line utility which list the imported functions for the .dll's and .exe's in your setup.

Ahh.. the non-CS guys can give the above line a skip.

4 comments:

IC said...

hmm...well well...agree wid most of the dumpd stuff,acknowledge some of it...n read b/w lines for the rest!!
n non CS guys skippng...damage!!mera number bhi aayega...!!
=)

IC said...

hey actly..agreeng ki acknwledgng ki pedda diff ledu!!kncham dramatise chesa!!hehe!!

Sharad Ragas said...

Those were some of the most impressive pieces of writing I have read in a very long time.

For a moment, they actually made me want to write again, but I could probably never write something as good as that.

I truly am, charmed at this moment.

I said...

@ic.. drame-bazi....is our mutually-shared-much cherished- birth right dear...

@SR.. Thank You. :)